My previous attempts failed to stay healthy.
Ive gained everything back i lost...

Today I started a Detox Diet, this called Detox 7, im going to do it in combination with Master Cleanse,, im not going to stop till June 30, this is so depressing that summers here and i gained it all back ..hmmmmmm

May Cleanse

I wont even go into yet but here i am being unhealthy again.
I will start on a 10 master cleanse tomorrow.
This time im going for 40 days.

I mean it

So far so good today, i promise no food, just need to work out for an hour,

DAY 5 --SPRING 08 CLEANSE

I havent posted in the past few days because i have been crazy busy with work which is good because its helped me stick to the cleanse, Ive totally lost my cravings and i feel great, im just a little low on energy thats all, also im having trouble falling asleep and i only sleep a short time.

This weekend im staying in so I plan on resting, sleeping, taking it easy. Also do some yoga as well and cardio..

I lost 3 pounds btw yay :)

DAY 2 Spring 08 Cleanse

Well I had such a busy day at work, finished my taxes last night and mailed it out today. I walked home from work since it was so nice out. Even went to H&M to buy some clothes, i brought some scarves and a blazer but i think ill wait till i lose more weight to buy spring clothes.

I had my juice all day at work, no cravings, so far tonight its not so bad, I have cravings but not as intense as yesterday. I'm sticking strictly to the cleanse tonight, its hard but i figure if i get by today and tomorrow by day 4 it will be easier for me.

I'm going to have my tea tonight, take a bath and call it an early night.
hope i do it tonight

DAY 1 - SPRING 08 10 Day Cleanse

Day 1-

The first day is always torture for me.

Wow here i am my second MC since February. In this new cleanse-when I blog I'll be talking about my emotions more- i think it plays a big part in my success and failure in this::

Day One-- i couldnt do SWF because i was at work early,,Was at work all day, wasnt so bad until I left work. I have cravings really bad..Ice cream, sweets, etc.. My biggest downfall is at night, I stay up very late doing projects for work, at around 1 am ill start eating sweets.. So im a little scared about it.
I drank almost all my juice already-might make another batch.. I had some peppermeint tea-that held me over.
Im just going to have to do this and get through the day, if i eat, i know im going to feel so depressed..
The weather is so nice out, its in the 60s. i keep my trenchcoat on cause im so uncomfortable showing my body..... I weigh 146 now... last summer i was about the same,, ive always been about 120. I cant go through another summer wearing a size 10-baggy black pants and fat jeans and long babydoll shirts to cover my tummy and hips.
I feel so low on myself and unattractive, im 5'5, I know it isnt that bad 146 but compared to being 120 all your life it is really bad.
The lowest I ever weighed was 110 back in 2003- i can tell you it was the best i ever felt and looked. People were so jealous of me they couldnt even compliment-those same people tell me now, "wow you look so much more healthy"
Alot of my weight gain has to do with a bad break-up I had also the stresses of my new job, i dont have time for much except going to work -coming home, staying up till 3 am working on projects-waking up at 7am-going to work--the weekends i mostly sleep--

I'm going to have to do this just for the sake of my happiness. I hope i really stick with this, this time..

Also after I reach my goal of 120, im going to have to come up with a lifetime plan to stick with.. I cant go back to just eating small portions without a real plan..

I guess your 30s really catch up to you,

If and when I get to 120 lbs, Im going to have to do something special for myself... Maybe a spa day.

UPDATE 3AM-- i was good but then got VERY intense cravings gave in and had two tablespoons of barbeque sauce.. Not awful but still, it shows i couldnt stick to the plan,,,---try harder tomorrow

Wow i failed on the Water Cleanse

I failed majorly on the water cleanse back to Master cleasne Monday

Hasnt even been a month and i have been pigging out, i gained 10 pounds back. I had a bad case of PMS,, and ate some bad food. went sour on my work out plan..

Tomorrow im going to start a 10 Day only Water-Tea Fast.. Then go on to the MC again for the entire month of april

What a way to live, well at least i catch myself,, my problem is i need to follow a plan, as soon as i stop a plan i go bad