DAY 5 --SPRING 08 CLEANSE

I havent posted in the past few days because i have been crazy busy with work which is good because its helped me stick to the cleanse, Ive totally lost my cravings and i feel great, im just a little low on energy thats all, also im having trouble falling asleep and i only sleep a short time.

This weekend im staying in so I plan on resting, sleeping, taking it easy. Also do some yoga as well and cardio..

I lost 3 pounds btw yay :)

DAY 2 Spring 08 Cleanse

Well I had such a busy day at work, finished my taxes last night and mailed it out today. I walked home from work since it was so nice out. Even went to H&M to buy some clothes, i brought some scarves and a blazer but i think ill wait till i lose more weight to buy spring clothes.

I had my juice all day at work, no cravings, so far tonight its not so bad, I have cravings but not as intense as yesterday. I'm sticking strictly to the cleanse tonight, its hard but i figure if i get by today and tomorrow by day 4 it will be easier for me.

I'm going to have my tea tonight, take a bath and call it an early night.
hope i do it tonight

DAY 1 - SPRING 08 10 Day Cleanse

Day 1-

The first day is always torture for me.

Wow here i am my second MC since February. In this new cleanse-when I blog I'll be talking about my emotions more- i think it plays a big part in my success and failure in this::

Day One-- i couldnt do SWF because i was at work early,,Was at work all day, wasnt so bad until I left work. I have cravings really bad..Ice cream, sweets, etc.. My biggest downfall is at night, I stay up very late doing projects for work, at around 1 am ill start eating sweets.. So im a little scared about it.
I drank almost all my juice already-might make another batch.. I had some peppermeint tea-that held me over.
Im just going to have to do this and get through the day, if i eat, i know im going to feel so depressed..
The weather is so nice out, its in the 60s. i keep my trenchcoat on cause im so uncomfortable showing my body..... I weigh 146 now... last summer i was about the same,, ive always been about 120. I cant go through another summer wearing a size 10-baggy black pants and fat jeans and long babydoll shirts to cover my tummy and hips.
I feel so low on myself and unattractive, im 5'5, I know it isnt that bad 146 but compared to being 120 all your life it is really bad.
The lowest I ever weighed was 110 back in 2003- i can tell you it was the best i ever felt and looked. People were so jealous of me they couldnt even compliment-those same people tell me now, "wow you look so much more healthy"
Alot of my weight gain has to do with a bad break-up I had also the stresses of my new job, i dont have time for much except going to work -coming home, staying up till 3 am working on projects-waking up at 7am-going to work--the weekends i mostly sleep--

I'm going to have to do this just for the sake of my happiness. I hope i really stick with this, this time..

Also after I reach my goal of 120, im going to have to come up with a lifetime plan to stick with.. I cant go back to just eating small portions without a real plan..

I guess your 30s really catch up to you,

If and when I get to 120 lbs, Im going to have to do something special for myself... Maybe a spa day.

UPDATE 3AM-- i was good but then got VERY intense cravings gave in and had two tablespoons of barbeque sauce.. Not awful but still, it shows i couldnt stick to the plan,,,---try harder tomorrow

Wow i failed on the Water Cleanse

I failed majorly on the water cleanse back to Master cleasne Monday